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The Deepest Part

June 10, 2026

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There are encounters that change you quietly. You don’t realise it at the time. You only understand what happened when you look back and notice that everything after was different.

I fell in love for the first time in 2021. I was twenty one years old. I won’t say where. I won’t say who. But I will say this. I had no idea what I was doing.

Not in a careless way. In the most innocent way possible. I knew how I felt. I just didn’t know how to carry it. I didn’t know how to communicate what was happening inside me. I didn’t know how to regulate myself under pressure, how to understand another person’s world, how to be someone worth loving back. I thought declaring love was enough. I was wrong. Love is far more complicated than declaration.

So I lost it. And I’ve been carrying that ever since.

The poem:

So I lost it. And I’ve been carrying that ever since.

So many encounters have changed me,
My first was reading history,
My second was learning strategy,
My third was love,
And forgetting the first two when she walked in the room for the first time.

My fourth was with mysticism,
When the world felt like it was touching me,
My fifth was with time,
When I saw my community,
And learnt to say goodbye.

I carry with me bitter regrets,
Of the chances I missed with you,
I was too young to know how to love you,
Now after all this time,
I’m still too hurt to forget.

I imagine you’ve seen me from the outside,
Watched me travel and get lost in games,
Watched me learn, meet others and perform,
But all of that vanishes at the thought of you.

I was too young to know how to love you,
But I still love you,
Now I’m too young to know what to do with my future,
But I know that somehow it would make sense if you were still here.

I was too young to know how to make you laugh,
Now after all this time,
I’m too hurt to forget.

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I don’t blame my younger self. I’ve made peace with the fact that it was the innocent mistake of someone who hadn’t yet learned how to hold what he was given. There’s no anger there. Just a quiet understanding.

But I won’t pretend the longing is gone either.

The deepest part of me is my longing for you.
It’s deeper than my innermost questions and stronger than my fears.
An entire year’s worth of experience can fade away at a single thought of you.

When you fall in love for the first time and you think to yourself this is it, this is the person I want to spend my life with, the rest of the world suddenly makes sense. Your direction becomes clear. Your role feels real. I was naive to think that way. You can’t build your future around another person. Your individual story is your own in the end.

But there’s still a part of me that believes if she were in the picture, things would have made more sense. Not because I need someone to complete me. But because when you’ve felt that kind of clarity once, even briefly, you don’t forget what it felt like to know where you were going.

I was too young to know how to love you.

I’m still learning what to do with that.

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The Essence of My Poetry

March 1, 2026

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My Story

There was a moment that changed everything for me. I was moved by Rumi’s poetry, and in that instant I realized that poetry has the power to move us in ways nothing else can. Words on a page could touch the heart, lift the spirit, and open a door to meaning. That was the spark that set me on the path I walk now.

Before poetry entered my life, the world felt lonely and cold. I looked out and saw life as a war, a series of conflicts to survive. Every day felt like a battle, and even the quiet moments were heavy with the sense that something was missing. There was no colour in the way I experienced the world, only shades of gray.

When I began to write, the challenges came quickly. The first was vulnerability. As a man, I felt the weight of showing my emotions in front of others, of standing on a stage and opening my heart with confidence. It felt like walking unarmoured into a battlefield. Yet, I learned to embrace that vulnerability, to see it as strength rather than weakness. The second challenge was finding my voice. For years, I searched, unsure of what kind of poet I was meant to be. But eventually, after persistence and self-discovery, I found my voice. Once I did, it was as if the words finally belonged to me.

Over time, I learned that poetry is not a struggle between intuition and intellect, heart and mind. It is a process, a dance between the two. I listen to my heart and intuition, for they tell me how I feel about my experience in the world. Then I turn to my intellect and mind, using them to craft these feelings into powerful, well-formed art. The two are not enemies. They are partners, and when they work together, they create something genius.

Through poetry, I have become more than what I was. I learned lessons about media and communication theories, about presenting, writing, and design. I discovered skills I never knew I had, and more than that, I began to see the world differently. What was once colorless has now come alive. The world is no longer daunting; it is alive with possibilities, alive with stories, alive with meaning. Even when I face difficult emotions, I know I can transform them into verse, shaping them into something beautiful.

This is what I hope my readers carry with them after encountering my poems. Whether it is the creative form I chose, the ideas I explored, or the emotions and experiences I tried to capture, I want my words to stay with them. I want them to leave my poetry with something they did not have before, something that lingers and shapes the way they see the world.

Conclusion

I began as a poet of the heart, giving voice to emotion. Then I became a thinking poet, marveling at the mind’s many powers, its ability to reason, discern, imagine, judge, plan, and create. I came to see the intellect as a divine gift, capable of ordering the turbulent inner world and guiding action in reality.

Yet the mind alone is like a faithful servant locked in a specific arena, confined to its own domain. Only the prophetic light that touches the heart acts as the key, unlocking the cage, allowing the intellect to grow wings, and lifting it to a higher level where knowledge becomes clarity, insight becomes guidance, and understanding becomes life itself.

My poetry now stands at this meeting point, the disciplined mind touched by the heart of light, where thought is elevated, vision expanded, and the soul guided. Reason is awakened and set free, rising beyond its former limits. This is a new chapter.

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Towards a Joyful Cosmology – The Foundations of my Art

February 1, 2026

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For those of you who are new to my blog page, my name is Muaad Sucule and I became a poet in my early twenties. This path eventually led me to find a lasting source of joy in my life. This is why I identify myself as a poet of joy. This joy is not something available only to people who write poetry.

That’s me, Muaad Sucule, presenting a poem at Amsterdam’s House of Stories

It is available to everyone and my poetry is about sharing these insights with the whole world. Joy, in our world, is in three steps:

Initial difficulty > Mystical insight > Joyous flow

This was the process that I went through and when I look at others around me who are also happy, they have also been through a similar experience.

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My journey didn’t start so well but like the soothsayer from Kung Fu Panda said: “Your story may not have such a happy beginning, but that does not make you who you are, it is the rest of it—who you choose to be,” is from the movie Kung Fu Panda 2. My story started with much difficulty. I was confused and I suffered from many difficult emotions.

At the same time, things were not going so well for me in my personal life and the world around. Eventually, you will give up and when you give up you realise that your ego (I.E. your image of yourself) couldn’t help you out of this situation and it couldn’t help you because it doesn’t exist.

You might be wondering, why is this a good thing? It’s because your image of yourself leads you to a type of psychological hell. It leads you to unnecessary conflict, internal frustration, close mindedness and causes you to make decisions that get rid of your peace.

Once this is out of the way, you begin to flow with the world around you. You begin to become more open minded, laugh more, have less internal frustration and the only conflicts in your life will be ones that are not caused by yourself.

You will become engaged with the world as you will see the world and understand that its a wave that you’re a part of and not a conflict that you’re struggling against. Then you will ride that wave into the future for the rest of your life.

This doesn’t mean you won’t have difficult or painful moments in your life but it does mean that you will always have the comfort of knowing that whatever pain you’re enduring – it will remind you of your real essence.

We can live lives that are joyful, meaningful, honest and bright. It is possible and that is what my poetry is all about.

A poem I always recite (written by me) is the following:

I am a flute,

Played by time,

My actions were never just my own,

Me and you are walking stories,

We are walking songs.

~ Muaad

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The Jestora Manifesto

October 15, 2025

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I like people who move through life on their own terms who laugh at the world and still stay themselves. Nasruddin Khoja, also called Nasruddin Hojja or Johar, is one of those people who inspired me. His stories, his humor, and his way of being completely himself effortlessly made me stop and think. I clicked with him because he moves freely, teaches without preaching, and protects his sense of self while making the world smile.

This is what I want my work to do. My poetry is like that. It is funny, light, independent, and full of quiet wisdom. It does not lecture. It shows, it surprises, it makes you see things differently, and it might even make you laugh at yourself along the way. That is how art can be free. That is how it can teach without trying too hard.

Media is just another way to do the same thing. Stories, videos, performances, platforms, I use them to share ideas and emotions that stick but without forcing anyone to follow. I want people to notice, to pause, to smile, to think, and maybe even to move a little differently afterward. It is subtle, playful, and honest. It is about freedom.

This is Jestora. My poetry and media promise to be thoughtful without being stiff, joyful without being shallow, and clever without being showy. It is an invitation to experience life differently, to breathe, to move at your own pace, and to see the beauty of being free. Relaxed. Sovereign. Untouchable.

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Why Jestora?

October 1, 2025

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Introduction

Identity matters. Most people have their identity defined by the external world. They take it seriously. It’s life or death for them and there is no humour, honesty or even a playful attitude about such a topic. In this blog post I will discuss how I found my own pen/artistic name and how this identity has an affect on my art and life at large.

Foundations

In a previous post, (you can find below this section) I discuss how play and joy were the foundation of my art. Once I realised this, I discovered that what I was really looking for in my poetry was to take this idea further.

I wanted my art to represent a playground. I wanted my life to represent this too. Upon realising this, I discovered that we are constrained by identity and I certainly was. I was taking abstractions connected to my own identity too seriously and I knew that Jestora was my way out.

Purpose of My Poetry

Jestora represents a playground and a beautiful space where we can explore our creative energies, ideas, insights and intuitive insights. My mission is to bring poetry, ideas and energy to life and to create a playground where people can explore, play and be inspired.

My vision is a world where curiosity, play and creativity transforms everyday life into a living playground for everyone. To return briefly to the foundations, my values are:
- Play
- Curiosity
- Creativity
- Courage
- Connection
I propose a different view to the poetry community. Whereas poetry is seen as a serious topic, I aim to make life playful, poetic and full of wonder. I am to use my art to create an experience you can feel, laugh with and step into.

Unlike traditional poetry or intellectual spaces, I create a living world and a playground for people to explore, play and be inspired.

Why my poetry will make the world a better place?

All religions discuss why the world is an illusion and something not to take too seriously, for good reason. It’s usually the most serious people who end up causing the most disaster and trauma to the world. The people who take their identity too seriously that they become so stuck on their image of themselves that they destroy things.

It’s their way or the high way and being so convinced, they assume (even logically) that the next step is for them to gain power and force others to follow them. People fight for land, nationalism and their interpretation of ideas. In the name of the sacred they break the sacred.

It reminds me of a quote from the film the kingdom of heaven:

“Holiness is in right action, and courage on behalf of those who cannot defend themselves, and goodness. What God desires is here [points to head] and here [points to heart] and what you decide to do every day will make you a good man…or not.”

My poetry creates a space, a playground so that human beings can get away from the savage battlefield. Jestora from the words (Jest and Aura) is the man who does this. An identity, yes but one that anyone can become. One that I am now.

– muaad

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Mysticism, Reason, and the Ego: Why There’s No Clash

April 28, 2025

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By Muaad Sucule / @jestoraverse

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Many people assume that mystical experience exists in tension with reason or that the ego is an obstacle to connecting with ultimate reality. From my experience, this is not the case. Mysticism, reason, and the ego are not enemies — they are different channels through which the same reality can be understood and expressed.

1. Mystical Insight as Direct Experience

At its core, the mystical experience is about connecting with the ultimate reality — the truth that underlies all existence. When the self is temporarily dissolved, when the ego loosens its grip, we become like a flower fully opened: receptive, aware, and at peace. This is not merely a mental exercise; it is a lived experience of reality itself. In these states, we perceive life clearly, with awe and love for the world around us.

2. Reason as a Part of Creation

Reason is a tool, a part of the created world, and a reflection of the soul’s intellect. It is not opposed to mystical insight — it complements it. While mystical experience reveals the immediacy of existence, reason allows us to understand, articulate, and navigate the patterns we observe. Far from clashing, reason can deepen mystical understanding by helping us process insights and share them in meaningful ways.

3. The Ego and Its Natural Transformation

The ego is often misunderstood as a barrier, but it is simply a part of our human identity. Mystical experience does not destroy the ego violently; it transforms it naturally. Life’s struggles, joys, and challenges erode the ego’s rigidity, preparing the mind for deeper insight. In fact, those who struggle most intensely are often closest to mystical realization because difficulty dissolves the false sense of self, leaving a purer vessel for connection with ultimate reality.

4. Universality of the Experience

All mystics touch the same underlying reality, even if their interpretations differ. Some get caught in abstract reasoning, others in ego-driven concerns or rigid doctrines. Yet the essential truth remains: mystical insight, reason, and ego are all threads in the same tapestry. Understanding this allows us to see life with clarity, compassion, and awe.

5. Living the Integration

In practice, embracing this integration means living thoughtfully while remaining open. We reason to navigate the world and make sense of experience. We honor the ego as a necessary guide. And we cultivate mystical awareness through contemplation, meditation, and openness to life’s unfolding. Together, they create a holistic approach to being — one that is simultaneously rational, grounded, and deeply connected to the divine presence in all things.

Mysticism is not a rejection of intellect or identity; it is the fullest expression of both. When we see reason and ego not as adversaries but as allies in the journey, we realize there is no true clash — only harmony waiting to be experienced.

Conclusion

A famous philosopher once said that “mysticism is the recognition of the pure fact,” because “the pure fact is mystery.” Thats why I believe that mystical experience isn’t anti-rationalism. It’s an experience where an individual accepts the world as it is.

With an open spirit and see things in a different lens. It’s the mark of a unique and enlightened mind that has been illuminated. Such a person is naturally at peace and is a positive force in the world. The mystical vision becomes a way of seeing patterns and higher order. The mystic is then the ultimate thinker.

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We Live in a Dual World

August 22, 2024

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Prose by Muaad Sucule (@jestoraverse)

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We live in a dual world. There are so many opportunities, yet so much misery across the globe. There’s so much to be grateful for, and at the same time, so much to be sad about. Somehow, everything feels like it’s changing, and the past seemed easier.

This is a dual world. There has been so much improvement in our personal journeys, yet there is still such a long way to go. We often feel invisible, yet there is so much connectivity through social media. We have gained so much knowledge about history and oppression, yet there is still so much division.

We live in a time of great technological advancement, yet there is an increasing sense of disconnection from reality. Our lives are more convenient than ever, yet we struggle with anxiety and depression at unprecedented levels. We have access to endless information, yet it often leaves us feeling more confused than informed. There is a surge in self-expression, yet many feel more misunderstood and isolated.

We have become more environmentally conscious, yet our consumption habits are driving us closer to ecological disaster. We demand transparency from those in power, yet misinformation spreads faster than ever before. There is a growing recognition of mental health, yet stigma and barriers to care persist. We cherish individuality, yet often conform to societal expectations. We celebrate diversity, yet prejudice and discrimination still thrive.

There is so much glorification of romance, yet so many gender wars. There are so many more educated people, yet so many more arguments. There are so many calls for peace, yet so much war in the world. There is so much awareness of our identity, yet so many feelings of not belonging. There is so much talk of religion, yet so few spiritual people. There is so much focus on “me and you,” yet so little on “us.”

There are so many more jobs, yet it is so difficult to acquire wealth. There is so much more discussion about emotional intelligence, yet so much more silent heartbreak. I’m tired of all this duality; I’m tired of this period. I think we secretly wish to be younger, not because of youth, but because we were blissfully unaware of this harsh, relentless world.

~ jestora

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How to overcome writers block – shifting perspectives

May 27, 2024

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Writers block is exactly that. An internal block. In this article I discuss how I had writers block and what I did to overcome it.

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Stuck and in a slump. That’s how I found myself for the few months before I was able to overcome writers block. What is writers block? Its usually only ever seen as a period where you have run out of ideas or when writers are empty. Often times writers take forever to return or worse, spend their time writing things which aren’t authentic.

I had writers block after I completed my internship. At the time I was figuiring out how I would market my brand but my actual writing slowed down. It wasn’t that I wasn’t publishing poems (I was) it was just that it wasn’t at the speed and rate that I was doing it previously.

My life as a poet slowed down. I was writing less and I wasn’t living as a poet. I was troubled by what was going on in the world and my mind began to process what happened to me in the past. For some reason I spent a lot of time listening to my ego.

I was more interested in external events in the world rather than on how I felt inside. That stopped me from writing. These processes were happening within me too quickly and I stayed like this for many many months. Perhaps 5 months. Or more.

Eventually I missed my old life as a poet. My life from last year. I realised that a writers block was precisely that, a block but an internal block. I realised that the reason why it happened was because I finally hit a crossroad. An internal crossroad. Was I willing to change based on all the lessons I learnt, the experiences I had (as an international student studying abroad) the poetry I read or was I going to try and remain nostalgic by clinging onto who I was in the past.

I decided to change. I looked within and realised that I felt peace and calm.I was no longer broken, angry, confused or sad. I was wiser. I had just turned 24 and I felt like a man. I understood the world around me – at least a heck of a lot better than I did at 18.

I looked within and I saw that I most wanted was to love myself now. You can’t love others if you can’t love yourself and you certainly can’t love and change the world. I was confused with my own thought patterns. I wanted love and yet I wasn’t giving myself permission to love myself. Strange.

After I did that I purchased things I’ve liked since I was a kid like new hats, bottles and beach sandles. Somehow, I understood the mystical poetry of the poets I read a year prior. I understood that poetry is when the soul is dancing. Poets were dancers in their own way. Soul dancers.

This time when I read them, I understood each line. I was no longer rushing through lines I slowed down and nejoyed each word. I was moving camly and slowy. At night, my own soul began dancing and I began outpouring my words.

I had gotten over my writers block. I was a poet once again. This time, changed forever.

~ jestora

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Poems for Companies? My unique type of marketing explained…..

January 16, 2024

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Poetry has become alive and relevant again. In this article I explain why.

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When it comes to poetry, we often think that poets are a group of introverted people who write about their feelings, and that’s about it. However, people who look below the surface understand that poets do a great deal of work. For example, they present poems, communicate ideas, and when a poet writes a piece that praises something or someone, they are making the ordinary look extraordinary in the eyes of the people.

We often talk about how we can market poems or poets. What if we turned the table around and used poetry as a marketing tool for companies? This wouldn’t be a new idea at all, as companies strive to have catchy taglines. But in a world where everything around us is becoming more technology-focused and people are looking for authenticity, a poem is a great way to show the world what the values of your company are — a way you can humanize your company and connect authentically with customers.

If people need it then so do companies…

Picture from campaign live website: Coca Cola featured George the Poet and took a poetic approach as a marketing campaign during the COVID period.

A poem is a message from the heart. It is intimate and personal. It is one of the main reasons why people love poetry. In a period where people are looking for authenticity in the Western world by turning to different beliefs, poetry has become something that is being welcomed again and slowly appearing as something that is on the way to becoming mainstream. Surprisingly, according to multiple researches conducted about poetry, the average age for people who read poetry is between 18-24. Poetry has a future, and it’s time for companies to see this as well.

A company could benefit from a poet’s touch because both companies and customers are looking for a connection. A customer is loyal to a brand when they have a deep emotional connection. In brand reputation theory, we know (according to the RepTrak model) that brand reputation is an emotional connection that a stakeholder has with any given company. If a company offers a short poem to connect with the customer, this is certainly going to increase the chances for the company to deepen its connection with the customers and strengthen its brand image. This is where I step in……

What I Offer

I offer, as a communication student who is also an intern and a published poet, precisely that. I have a talent for writing poems, and my talent also happens to be my passion and my favourite pastime. I can write short creative poems (which stand out and are in line with the company’s values, image, vision, and mission) for the company in order to help the company achieve the benefits that I have listed above. Feel free to contact me at:

@jestoraverse

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muaadspoetry@gmail.com

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